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| Decisions, decisions |
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Why I feel Oprah is a seriously bad influence on women:
1. She is airbrushed on the cover. To say nothing of professional hair, makeup, and all that Spanx. Nobody actually looks like that, ever.
2. She tells us we can do Anything if we only fabricate outlandish goals and continually pump up our craving to achieve them. This is bullshit. It makes women cheer when they are in the studio audience, but the next day it can only make you very very depressed. Because you can't. Do Anything. Everyone is limited in many ways by many factors. I mean, come on, I can hardly do anything, let alone Anything. And I've tried.
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Hi ----- to all who are contemplating kidney transplant -
In the 14 months since my transplant (live donor) I have had 15 bladder infections, and no. 16 showed up today the way they do, with major urge incontinence. So charming. They bring depression and apathy with them, and the antibiotics upset my digestive system, so I have to force-feed yogurt and acidopholus pills and carry various stomach medications. I am having serious pain problems with degeneration in my spine, perhaps avascular necrosis caused by the huge doses of steroids at the time of the surgery. I am limping, that's a hip, and recovering very slowly from a broken arm. The steroids caused me to start having exaggerated moodswings that require medication, and it took six months or more of trial and error to solve the insomnia they brought on. Everyone tells me I look great (for 69). Wow, reborn. I have not had any rejection problems. There are people in my family who are glad I'm still around, I guess. :) Otherwise, I have not earned the transplant or paid the universe back. The main thing I have gained is that I am no longer afraid of dying.
I don't know whether I would do it again if I had foreseen all this, but I think that's not a very good question. We don't get to undo our decisions. Or control the outcome. Don't even think it.
