Worse, my body is officially sick again - a kidney infection, at least - and I've been observing some things about being sick.
First, you don't have to be miserable. If your serotonin is up - and it is April, after all - you can be in a good mood while sick and tired.
Second, if you hurt a lot, and my left kidney really does, you can forget about it while concentrating on something else. In my case, it was picking up the antibiotic and $100 worth of no-effort food at Kroger's after the doctor visit.
Third, being sick gives you permission to indulge yourself. I picked up various little things I like, including ~
Double-stuf golden Oreos (quick low-blood-sugar treatment), on sale
Two bars of nice-smelling soap, on sale, for my dresser drawers
A package of those pink cupcake things with coconut on them that used to be made by Hostess.
Now really, I thought, why do I have to be sick to treat myself to these little things?
A pointer: Be prepared. Feeling ghastly last night (serotonin way down) I bought a dumb e-book for my iPad. I took the iPad along to the doctor's office where it amused me while I waited, and so I would have it if they decided to admit me right then, always possible. They take transplant patients seriously.
The infection is in one or both of the old kidneys. It would have been nice to take them out when they put the new one in, but it doubles the length of the surgery (which is over 3 hours anyway), and that's riskier the older you get. Or younger, if you're getting younger. Haha.
I also realized that understanding Buddhist thought is as important to my happiness as meditation is. I don't know how many times I've chanted The Five Remembrances and told people about them (they are at the bottom of this blog).
I am of the nature to grow sick; I cannot escape sickness.Really, you can't. Therefore getting sick is not your fault, no matter what your father said. Shit happens. Karma is very complicated, and most of it is out of our control.
This is why so many people have been disappointed by TM, Deepak Chopra, and a squillion other gurus and programs and face creams that promise to fix you. We are of the nature to fall apart, and all repairs are only temporary.
Not that I like it, you understand. You don't have to like it, as long as you get it.
update: It wasn't a kidney infection after all, but a muscle problem caused by my lifelong scoliosis and a bad fall last year, which fractured a vertebra and led me to become even more sedentary than is my natural state. And I didn't have to go to the hospital. Still, you should always take your tablet. You never know.