|I can nap anywhere|
and also without ideas of how things ought to be, what you are entitled to
and not holding your plans and desires too tightly
and relinquishing your belief that you can, or could, control what happens to you (such as a good night's sleep)
but getting to notice that your stomach can't put away a certain family problem, and is reacting. Strongly.
More thoughts this evening - I saw the same thing at the end of my mother's life - she clung more desperately to her delusions. About her husband, their history, herself, her kids, the bartender. It's sad how much pain she caused, and how she suffered.
That's another thing to let go of, your anger when you see someone's stubborn delusions ripple out from them to cause pain to everyone caught in their wake.
So here is the thing - the search for enlightenment as bliss is the wrong emphasis. We should be working and praying to get over our delusions. To live in the world as it is.
(And in that world, sometimes you just don't sleep well, and that's a fact.)